Post by aijha0926 on May 20, 2008 13:18:01 GMT
Assalamu Alaykum,
I'm hoping you will guide me in the direction I need to find my light.
I was raised by the Catholic religion. I attended church and even went to an after school program to enhance my knowledge of God and the Bible while completing the Holy Sacraments. My faith in God was strong, and I love and admire Jesus Christ for his feats and undeniable commitment to God, I found myself asking if Jesus was the natural-born Son of our Holy God? I felt that God is eternal, God is Holy, God is the Untouchable. And only certain Men that walk the Earth have such strong faith and dedication to God that they are able to communicate with Him and become His chosen Prophets. I feel that makes them exceptional beings because they provide in us the strength and incentive we need as God's children to do as God conveys. Through these prophets we are enlightened with the Honorable Word of God and are given the path needed to achieve eternal life in paradise with Him.
My first exposure to the Islamic religion was when I was in grade school. My school peer had told our class about Islam, and his words were informative, and seemed true to me. I sometimes feel as if this might have been my missed sign for conversion; as the years proceeding were filled with nothing but denial of my family, religion, and myself. I felt myself moving farther away from God for fear that I might be punished. Then I gave birth to an illegitimate daughter, since I chose not to marry her biological father. I named her Ayisha. I felt as if God had written her name for me, since I don't even remember placing the pen on the paper. For seven years after her birth, my life was in constant turmoil. My educational life was prospering tremendously (I had completed my master's degree and graduated my university with honorary mention); but once completed, had no vocation. My degrees were for nothing, and I felt empty.
Four months before I met my husband, I spoke to a woman in a hospital who was Muslim and although she never spoke of the religion with her mouth, I felt it in her heart. I felt her sincerity and love for me. I remember her facial expression and her sentimental eyes. I didn't see this as a calling to Islam, but I did see it as a sign to move closer to God. I tried going to different churches; Catholic, Baptist, even the Universal church. Although I saw their faith and probably felt just as strong internally, it wasn't for me.
I then met my husband, a devout Muslim. We were married under Islam 28 days later and he has taken my child as his own. I am now much closer to God.
My husband has never asked me to convert; but he has asked that I attain knowledge in Islam and allow Allah to show me the way to righteousness. I want to officially convert my faith to Islam, but I know I will not receive the support I need from my family. They would never accept my decision, and our daughter may not fully understand my conversion as she was born under a different belief system. She is very interested in learning more about Islam, and my husband has been a wonderful teacher to her. But I am not sure how she would respond to her mother practicing a different religion. But as supportive and loving as my husband is, I am afraid there may be a slight distance because our connection as a Muslim couple under Allah may be lacking.
Where do I go from here? I appreciate any guidance you can provide. God bless...
I'm hoping you will guide me in the direction I need to find my light.
I was raised by the Catholic religion. I attended church and even went to an after school program to enhance my knowledge of God and the Bible while completing the Holy Sacraments. My faith in God was strong, and I love and admire Jesus Christ for his feats and undeniable commitment to God, I found myself asking if Jesus was the natural-born Son of our Holy God? I felt that God is eternal, God is Holy, God is the Untouchable. And only certain Men that walk the Earth have such strong faith and dedication to God that they are able to communicate with Him and become His chosen Prophets. I feel that makes them exceptional beings because they provide in us the strength and incentive we need as God's children to do as God conveys. Through these prophets we are enlightened with the Honorable Word of God and are given the path needed to achieve eternal life in paradise with Him.
My first exposure to the Islamic religion was when I was in grade school. My school peer had told our class about Islam, and his words were informative, and seemed true to me. I sometimes feel as if this might have been my missed sign for conversion; as the years proceeding were filled with nothing but denial of my family, religion, and myself. I felt myself moving farther away from God for fear that I might be punished. Then I gave birth to an illegitimate daughter, since I chose not to marry her biological father. I named her Ayisha. I felt as if God had written her name for me, since I don't even remember placing the pen on the paper. For seven years after her birth, my life was in constant turmoil. My educational life was prospering tremendously (I had completed my master's degree and graduated my university with honorary mention); but once completed, had no vocation. My degrees were for nothing, and I felt empty.
Four months before I met my husband, I spoke to a woman in a hospital who was Muslim and although she never spoke of the religion with her mouth, I felt it in her heart. I felt her sincerity and love for me. I remember her facial expression and her sentimental eyes. I didn't see this as a calling to Islam, but I did see it as a sign to move closer to God. I tried going to different churches; Catholic, Baptist, even the Universal church. Although I saw their faith and probably felt just as strong internally, it wasn't for me.
I then met my husband, a devout Muslim. We were married under Islam 28 days later and he has taken my child as his own. I am now much closer to God.
My husband has never asked me to convert; but he has asked that I attain knowledge in Islam and allow Allah to show me the way to righteousness. I want to officially convert my faith to Islam, but I know I will not receive the support I need from my family. They would never accept my decision, and our daughter may not fully understand my conversion as she was born under a different belief system. She is very interested in learning more about Islam, and my husband has been a wonderful teacher to her. But I am not sure how she would respond to her mother practicing a different religion. But as supportive and loving as my husband is, I am afraid there may be a slight distance because our connection as a Muslim couple under Allah may be lacking.
Where do I go from here? I appreciate any guidance you can provide. God bless...