Post by maliha on Oct 22, 2005 6:04:10 GMT
Bismillahir Rahmanir RaheeM,
Dear Imam Saab,
After much thought , I think only Allah and experts have the answers to relationship issues.
Love is a gamble.Some are good at it and know what they are getting into .....while some always loose.
I'm 32 yrs old and I have been SEEING Steven ,31 ,for a almost 2 yrs now.We are both divorcees and come from different cultures and religions.It caused a huge uproar in my family when I decided to see a white american guy,who changed his religion for me ,but I was looked down upon with distaste and hatred in my family and society for the longest time.My brothers stopped talking to me coz they felt that I had crossed the limits of Islamic morals and everybody in the society kept calling My family and me names because I was seeing a white guy.My rationalization was "He is a muslim .He is a sweet and kind person and understands me.I dont think he's in any way comparable to the abuser that you had chosen for me and who beat me up for no reason.Besides ,I had tried to get help from my parents when I was being brutally beaten up by my ex-husband and they turned a blind eye to it.He used to drink and they felt It was in my hands to make him stop.He urinated on me and did all kinds of derogatory things and yet it didn't matter to my parents or my brothers.Islam doesn't permit this!!.Istayed in the marriage for 2 years.I left home ,stayed in a Shelter and Suffered until one of my uncles ,May Allah (SBUH,)bless him came and helped me.I got my divorce in 4 months.when I began working I started going to school and I met Steven.He was after me and most interested in knowing about our religion .I wasn't intersted in him the way he was and one day he told me that he wante d to convert to Islam.He's done Islamic history at UIC during graduation and knew quite a lot about it.I told him where to go but he insisted that i accompany him.I did as I was curious about this conversion thing too.He converted att The Masjid-AL-Huda and is now called Nasr.He prays as many times as he can .His memory is really goood and he even recites the Quran.Somewhere down the line I discovered he was unlike most men I had met and seen.He was kind and got into the depth of the religion and even now spends his time at the library reading on Islam.As a gentleman ,he told me that he wanted to meet my parents and ask my hand in marriage.I knew my family would never understand .Anyways he spoke to them over the phone but instad got threatened by my brothers saying they would skin him alive.A year went by and me and my family were at loggerheads with each other.I worked odd-jobs and went to my psychiatrist for help as the abuse had left me damaged.My dad still calls me a whore and slut and names like that !!. It's not like ever done anything of the sort to defame my family.he has always abusd me.What my family hates about me I think is my assertiveness.My dad spends whatever money he can get his hands on into horse racing and when I find out...he starts abusing me verbally.He doesn't abuse my brothes ..only me.even though he's paralysed today...he hasn't changed.When I was 21,my parents forced me to marry my first cousin who was in love with another girl at that time.I told my mother about the affair but she just brushed it off as INFATUATION.My first husband never accepted me as a wife and divorced me in 4 months.He too used to drink ,gamble and womenise.I lead 8 years in India with the tag of a divorcee and went into depression.My In-Laws were afterall my Uncle and Aunt .My parents had a Love Marriage .But I was left with no choices...except to get closer to Allah.My family thought the divorde happened coz I was posessed by some jinn.I've been put through enough!!.Finally after accomplishing myself and thinking let bygones be bygones,I allowed my elders to choose for me again at 29 yrs of age...and another BLUNDER happened.But mmy question is ,Imam saab,during the pain and torture why didn't my family help me?.
Now coming to point ,amidst the one year of dating and standing up for this relationship with Steve,I realize d that I am a qualified MBA from India and can go back to school and get an american equivalent .On the other hand,Steve ,has a bachelor's degree in Liberal arts and didn't work after his divorce for almost 2 yrs.Upon asking he said he was in deep depression.I asked him if he got help and he said he went to an Internist and took medications for sometime and they only made him feel worse and so he stopped.I wondered why he had hidden all this from me or had I not seen it-and taken it as his calm demeanor?.Knowing this ,I wanted Steve to get a life and live like a Zombie.One day he told me about wanting to kill himself because he had lost his zest for life ..He told me about how his faher had abused him and his ex-wife had affairs with other men.I knew I had to help him.
I spoke to my psychiatrist and he said he would like to see Steve.they met and he was referred to another psychiatrist and a therapist.He is on medication now and there has been terrific improvement.
I urged him to join school and he wasn't sure which course he wanted to take and wanted me to tell him.I suggested accounting,Medical billing and coding whatever he wanted and could see a future in.He choose med billing and coding.I was going to school and so was he and I decided that this was the moment to barge into my house and introduce steve to them .I did.Steve even asked my dad for my hand in marriage and my parents were happy but they said the first and foremost condition was that he have a stable income and I do too.Marriages can happen later.
He promised them that it would happen coz he loved me.
From then on my parents grew so fond of him that he came over almost every other day but my youngest brother has always disliked the idea of dating and was never hospitable towards Steve.He always said ws doing a sin.I guesss i'm never any good.I took flak from my mom's brother who said that my were allowing prostitution in their house and had no control over me.
Whats been hurting me is the fact that after completing nearly two semesters in medical billing and coding Steve says he doesn't want to continue with course anymore.He said I had forced him to join the course.If it was up to him he would have taken up something that interested him.I asked him what that might be?.He said he didn't know.I asked him when would he know ,his reply was "I don't know".I suggested that he take a catalog of courses and job prospects I had with me and then decide and his reply was"How will I know ...there are soo many courses and I think computers is interesting .I want you to help me in computers."
I told him "quite frankly,I only the basics.I can only help you with those .but what will you do when the course gets advanced?".He replied"I don't know".when we went to my parents ..I was really irritated and knew I had to discuss this issue with Mom.I did and she explained to Steve that financial stability was important for marriage and a man needed to hold a good job.he told her that "I work at Marshall Fields.I have a Stable Job(he makes $9.50/hr).Is she marrying me for the money or for the job?".She explained and he acted like he understood and then he left.
This scenario has occur ed with me twice before..that's why I needed to involve my mother this time and take your advice as well.I have explained to him over the phone that I have my principles in life and I have never blamed him for anything.I told him he was being obstinate and had no desire to do better in life and I don't want to lead my life struggling for money and deal with his mood -swings.I'm not his mother .He always throws it back on my face by saying"you're just being this way cozz of your depression!!".NOW WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT?LIKE HE'S SOO PERFECT.I HAVE DECIDED TO AVOID HIM UNTIL I HEAR FROM YOU.I HAVE ALWAYS HELPED EVERYONE AND TODAY NO BODY ELSE HAS LABELS LIKE I DO. I always had faith in allah and wont loose it but I cant bear listening to this stuff anymore just because I'm helpless.Afterall,Hasn't Allah (SUBH )said..instead of back answering and bickkering just leave the situation with your dignity and pride intact?.
I work as a caregiver for seniors and it's hard work but maybe Allah will give me some sawaab for it.My family calls me a sinner and a failure...maybe Allah will cleanse me of my sins.There's not a moment of peace in our house.My dad is responsible for this.I can't take the screams and swearing anymore.and all he says when he sees me is ..where is the money?.How much did you make?I'll go insane If i live here anylonger.as far as Steve is concerned It is Upto Allah to knock sennse into him.I am unable to eat anything because of all this.My doctor wants me to gain weight..but I can't.OH ALLAH PLEASE LISTEN TO MY PLEAS!!!.
I f there are any duas I can recite during these trying times ..please help me.
JAZAK'ALLAH-U-KHAIR
sincerely,
eagerly waiting for your reply,
Maliha.
Dear Imam Saab,
After much thought , I think only Allah and experts have the answers to relationship issues.
Love is a gamble.Some are good at it and know what they are getting into .....while some always loose.
I'm 32 yrs old and I have been SEEING Steven ,31 ,for a almost 2 yrs now.We are both divorcees and come from different cultures and religions.It caused a huge uproar in my family when I decided to see a white american guy,who changed his religion for me ,but I was looked down upon with distaste and hatred in my family and society for the longest time.My brothers stopped talking to me coz they felt that I had crossed the limits of Islamic morals and everybody in the society kept calling My family and me names because I was seeing a white guy.My rationalization was "He is a muslim .He is a sweet and kind person and understands me.I dont think he's in any way comparable to the abuser that you had chosen for me and who beat me up for no reason.Besides ,I had tried to get help from my parents when I was being brutally beaten up by my ex-husband and they turned a blind eye to it.He used to drink and they felt It was in my hands to make him stop.He urinated on me and did all kinds of derogatory things and yet it didn't matter to my parents or my brothers.Islam doesn't permit this!!.Istayed in the marriage for 2 years.I left home ,stayed in a Shelter and Suffered until one of my uncles ,May Allah (SBUH,)bless him came and helped me.I got my divorce in 4 months.when I began working I started going to school and I met Steven.He was after me and most interested in knowing about our religion .I wasn't intersted in him the way he was and one day he told me that he wante d to convert to Islam.He's done Islamic history at UIC during graduation and knew quite a lot about it.I told him where to go but he insisted that i accompany him.I did as I was curious about this conversion thing too.He converted att The Masjid-AL-Huda and is now called Nasr.He prays as many times as he can .His memory is really goood and he even recites the Quran.Somewhere down the line I discovered he was unlike most men I had met and seen.He was kind and got into the depth of the religion and even now spends his time at the library reading on Islam.As a gentleman ,he told me that he wanted to meet my parents and ask my hand in marriage.I knew my family would never understand .Anyways he spoke to them over the phone but instad got threatened by my brothers saying they would skin him alive.A year went by and me and my family were at loggerheads with each other.I worked odd-jobs and went to my psychiatrist for help as the abuse had left me damaged.My dad still calls me a whore and slut and names like that !!. It's not like ever done anything of the sort to defame my family.he has always abusd me.What my family hates about me I think is my assertiveness.My dad spends whatever money he can get his hands on into horse racing and when I find out...he starts abusing me verbally.He doesn't abuse my brothes ..only me.even though he's paralysed today...he hasn't changed.When I was 21,my parents forced me to marry my first cousin who was in love with another girl at that time.I told my mother about the affair but she just brushed it off as INFATUATION.My first husband never accepted me as a wife and divorced me in 4 months.He too used to drink ,gamble and womenise.I lead 8 years in India with the tag of a divorcee and went into depression.My In-Laws were afterall my Uncle and Aunt .My parents had a Love Marriage .But I was left with no choices...except to get closer to Allah.My family thought the divorde happened coz I was posessed by some jinn.I've been put through enough!!.Finally after accomplishing myself and thinking let bygones be bygones,I allowed my elders to choose for me again at 29 yrs of age...and another BLUNDER happened.But mmy question is ,Imam saab,during the pain and torture why didn't my family help me?.
Now coming to point ,amidst the one year of dating and standing up for this relationship with Steve,I realize d that I am a qualified MBA from India and can go back to school and get an american equivalent .On the other hand,Steve ,has a bachelor's degree in Liberal arts and didn't work after his divorce for almost 2 yrs.Upon asking he said he was in deep depression.I asked him if he got help and he said he went to an Internist and took medications for sometime and they only made him feel worse and so he stopped.I wondered why he had hidden all this from me or had I not seen it-and taken it as his calm demeanor?.Knowing this ,I wanted Steve to get a life and live like a Zombie.One day he told me about wanting to kill himself because he had lost his zest for life ..He told me about how his faher had abused him and his ex-wife had affairs with other men.I knew I had to help him.
I spoke to my psychiatrist and he said he would like to see Steve.they met and he was referred to another psychiatrist and a therapist.He is on medication now and there has been terrific improvement.
I urged him to join school and he wasn't sure which course he wanted to take and wanted me to tell him.I suggested accounting,Medical billing and coding whatever he wanted and could see a future in.He choose med billing and coding.I was going to school and so was he and I decided that this was the moment to barge into my house and introduce steve to them .I did.Steve even asked my dad for my hand in marriage and my parents were happy but they said the first and foremost condition was that he have a stable income and I do too.Marriages can happen later.
He promised them that it would happen coz he loved me.
From then on my parents grew so fond of him that he came over almost every other day but my youngest brother has always disliked the idea of dating and was never hospitable towards Steve.He always said ws doing a sin.I guesss i'm never any good.I took flak from my mom's brother who said that my were allowing prostitution in their house and had no control over me.
Whats been hurting me is the fact that after completing nearly two semesters in medical billing and coding Steve says he doesn't want to continue with course anymore.He said I had forced him to join the course.If it was up to him he would have taken up something that interested him.I asked him what that might be?.He said he didn't know.I asked him when would he know ,his reply was "I don't know".I suggested that he take a catalog of courses and job prospects I had with me and then decide and his reply was"How will I know ...there are soo many courses and I think computers is interesting .I want you to help me in computers."
I told him "quite frankly,I only the basics.I can only help you with those .but what will you do when the course gets advanced?".He replied"I don't know".when we went to my parents ..I was really irritated and knew I had to discuss this issue with Mom.I did and she explained to Steve that financial stability was important for marriage and a man needed to hold a good job.he told her that "I work at Marshall Fields.I have a Stable Job(he makes $9.50/hr).Is she marrying me for the money or for the job?".She explained and he acted like he understood and then he left.
This scenario has occur ed with me twice before..that's why I needed to involve my mother this time and take your advice as well.I have explained to him over the phone that I have my principles in life and I have never blamed him for anything.I told him he was being obstinate and had no desire to do better in life and I don't want to lead my life struggling for money and deal with his mood -swings.I'm not his mother .He always throws it back on my face by saying"you're just being this way cozz of your depression!!".NOW WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT?LIKE HE'S SOO PERFECT.I HAVE DECIDED TO AVOID HIM UNTIL I HEAR FROM YOU.I HAVE ALWAYS HELPED EVERYONE AND TODAY NO BODY ELSE HAS LABELS LIKE I DO. I always had faith in allah and wont loose it but I cant bear listening to this stuff anymore just because I'm helpless.Afterall,Hasn't Allah (SUBH )said..instead of back answering and bickkering just leave the situation with your dignity and pride intact?.
I work as a caregiver for seniors and it's hard work but maybe Allah will give me some sawaab for it.My family calls me a sinner and a failure...maybe Allah will cleanse me of my sins.There's not a moment of peace in our house.My dad is responsible for this.I can't take the screams and swearing anymore.and all he says when he sees me is ..where is the money?.How much did you make?I'll go insane If i live here anylonger.as far as Steve is concerned It is Upto Allah to knock sennse into him.I am unable to eat anything because of all this.My doctor wants me to gain weight..but I can't.OH ALLAH PLEASE LISTEN TO MY PLEAS!!!.
I f there are any duas I can recite during these trying times ..please help me.
JAZAK'ALLAH-U-KHAIR
sincerely,
eagerly waiting for your reply,
Maliha.